Do all of these posts have to be titled? What if I cant put a few specifc words to what all I am going to write about, or if I dont know what I will be writing about prior to writing?

You know those days that you have planned out in your mind, and then they don't go at all like you thought/wanted them to? Yeah, I hate them too. They always seem to happen to me on game day. When I feel like I'm going to go out and dominate and do well. Get to the field, start the game, and one thing happens, or something doesnt go just right....BAM. Gone. Nothing goes the way it was supposed to, and you are three steps back from where you started.

That was today, once again. I feel like I might be losing my spot, but then again I dont. We only have three pitchers. How could I "lose" my spot when its inevitable that I will get playing time. I have these expectations for each time I play, and I guess recently I just haven't been living up to my own standards. I guess I'll just "forget" about it. Throw the ball.
I'm always in that position. Quit trying so hard. Have confidence in yourself. You dont have to prove yourself.
I think I try to prove myself to myself more than anyone else.
I'll get another go at it in the next few days. I just have to remember that this is a silly game that I play while I spend my time here on earth; to be thankful that I have been given the talent that I do have; and to use the oppurtunities when given to reflect Christ.


I can't believe that I am so close to being done with school and out in the real world. Im so thankful for the oppurtunities that I have been given here at my school. I get to do what I love, and still work in the field that I love. I even get to experience both sides. I hope that when I do get a "real" job that I can build genuine relationships and in some way or another show the love of Christ. That's yet another reason why I want to do what I am doing.

In the end, its all about loving people and showing the love of Christ.
I have to remind myself this somedays.


You know what I dont understand, but am totally guilty of. I dont understand why people become so addicted/dependent to facebook. I mean, yeah its cool to keep up with people, but have you ever made yourself not log on for a full week? I have. All of a sudden, I find all this empty time that would have been spent on facebook reading about people who I dont talk to or havent seen in years. It amazes me the time that I spend on facebook, but I cant stop. I got so so much more done when I didnt log on. I dont know, just wondering I guess.
And then again, what about the time that I am going to spend on the blog, writing things that most people have no care in the world about. Why do I spend my time writing? Its the same as if I were on facebook.
Theory: maybe people do anything they can to get away from the things that they have to do. I mean, college kids use facebook as a "study break," when in reality they havent even started studying. I check my facebook over and over again on my phone during long softball trips.
Is it to combat boredom? I dont think so...

I really dont knnow. Just know Im part of the vast majority who get on more than once a day, or who stay logged on for hours.


Well, after thinking through all that, I guess I should use my time wisely.
Going to do the homework I wish I could do this weekend.

Going to Victoria tomorrow till late Sunday. No homework time, really...

ashley

--Oh one thing before I go. Name of the blog: Soli Deo Gloria- To God be the Glory....b/c all that I do is because of Him and his love for me. He deserves all the praise, not me.